Monday, August 30, 2010

"HEAL ME"

Hello All~

Tomorrow Rick will be checking in for, God willing, his last chemotherapy. Part B, known as Methotrexate, Cytarabine & a Methotrexate recovery drug. Not that these drug names mean much to you, yet we are very grateful for your prayers against the ill effects of these hard core attackers that war against the "health" of Rick's body. Nevertheless, we are so thankful to receive these treatments that fight disease and save lives; however, to recognize the true Physician is our gift. We ask God to bless Rick with grace, peace & joy to endure all things in the coming weeks; we pray for the LORD'S strength and courage to press through all hard times as Christ goes before Rick & continues to fight this battle for him. As the 4 of us prayed together earlier this evening for Rick and his hospital stay, Skyler acknowledged the fact that we all should be well routined in this chemo thing, however, she knew (as well as all of us at that moment) that we needed and asked for God's loving peace and encouragement just as much as the first time- deeply. It's hard when Dad is away.

If all goes as it has in the past, Rick should be released Sunday, Sept. 5th. (This continues to be a miracle in itself!) Although, the first 7-10 days after have usually been the worst; horrible nausea, fatigue, insomnia, body aches & very low blood counts. Praying against these too!

Rick is scheduled for a Bone Marrow Biopsy Tues. Sept. 21 to determine whether there is any cancer remaining in his bone tissue. This will determine if he will need more treatment or not. Please pray for Rick. Pray that God would have mercy & he would be healed! Whatever is revealed, we will rejoice.

Thank you for your love and continued prayers.

All Glory to God,

Dana

It is the sole prerogative of God to remove spiritual disease. Natural disease may be instrumentally healed by men, but even then the honor is to be given to God who grants wisdom to doctors and bestows power to enable the human frame to cast off disease. As for spiritual sicknesses, these remain with the Great Physician alone; He claims it as His prerogative: "I kill and I make alive; I wound and I heal"; and one of the Lord's choice titles is Jehovah-Rophi, "the Lord who heals you." "I will heal your wounds" is a promise that could not come from the lips of man but only from the mouth of the eternal God. On this account the psalmist cried unto the Lord, "Heal me, O LORD, for my bones are troubled," and again, "Heal me, for I have sinned against you!" For this also the godly praise the name of the Lord, saying, "[He] heals all your diseases." He who made man can restore man; He who was at first the creator of our nature can re-create it. What a transcendent comfort it is that in the person of Jesus "the whole fullness of deity dwells bodily."

My soul, whatever your disease may be, this Great Physician can heal you. If He is God, there can be no limit to His power. Come then with the blind eye of darkened understanding; come with the limping foot of wasted energy; come with the disabled hand of weak faith, the fever of an angry temper, or the fit of shivering despondency; come just as you are, for He who is God can certainly restore you. No one can restrain the healing power that proceeds from Jesus our Lord. Legions of devils have attempted to overcome the power of the beloved Physician, and never once has He been hindered. All His patients have been cured in the past and shall be in the future, and you may be counted among them, my friend, if you will but rest yourself in Him today. [Alistair Begg]

Heal us, O LORD, and we shall be healed. Jeremiah 17:14

You have seen our ways, but You will heal us. Is. 57:18

Monday, August 23, 2010

"A Purposeful Journey"

Dear Family & Friends~

Thank you for your steadfast love, care, and constant prayer on behalf of Rick and our family.
It has been a long month, and now with one week before Round 4 (or technically, Course 2, Part B) we see August 31st just around the corner. The girls are back in school, however, we were all totally blessed last weekend to get away to San Diego to just relax and enjoy some awesome weather and dining.

Rick is feeling good lately-other than tired, but this is normal. He had a blood draw today and his numbers were good, too! Got his BNP blood test results back last week and this was a huge answer to prayer! His level was 30. (Over 100 is not good.) We are very encouraged. We're still waiting for the EKG report, nevertheless, his pulse rate has returned to normal. All Praises to God!!! We pray EKG shows no damage. Rick has an appointment with Dr. M on Thursday to discuss progress and prep for next treatment starting a week from tomorrow.
Please pray for God's strength, courage, peace, protection and grace over Rick to endure next week and after. Each chemo treatment definitely has its "evil" accumulative effects.

Also, our prayer and heart's desire is that this will be Rick's last treatment and will then get the OK to receive his Stem Cell Transplant. Soon after he completes next week's round, he will have a bone marrow biopsy to reveal whether there is any residual cancer. This will determine, along with blood tests if or how much more treatment he will need before SCT. We pray God's mercy that ALL cancer is gone. We pray God's grace & peace to endure whatever He chooses it to be. "Let Your mercy, O LORD, be on us, according as we hope in You." (Ps. 33:22).

God tells me in His Word to "pray without ceasing." (1 Thess. 5:17) ..to never stop. This verse applies to our home. It means more now, than ever. It keeps us grounded when nothing is certain. It gives us hope, for our hope is in Jesus Christ alone. As a friend recently shared with me, "Faith isn't denial but, facing facts w/o being discouraged. CANCER: u CANT DENY the diagnosis but, u CAN DEFY the verdict. Fight!"

I know as I write this not all our readers are believing Christians. However, I share this with you too, in hopes to encourage your heart in some small way to think about what God wants for you and your life. But, first He just wants to hear from you. O how He loves us.

Charles H. Spurgeon once wrote:
"Never give up praying, not even though Satan should suggest to you that it is
in vain for you to cry unto God. Pray in his teeth; "pray without ceasing." If
for awhile the heavens are as brass and your prayer only echoes in thunder above
your head, pray on; if month after month your prayer appears to have miscarried,
and no reply has been vouchsafed to you, yet still continue to draw nigh unto
the Lord. Do not abandon the mercy-seat for any reason whatever. If it be a good
thing that you have been asking for, and you are sure it is according to the
divine will, if the vision tarry wait for it, pray, weep, entreat, wrestle,
agonise till you get that which you are praying for. If your heart be cold in
prayer, do not restrain prayer until your heart warms, but pray your soul unto
heat by the help of the everblessed Spirit who helpeth our infirmities. If the
iron be hot then hammer it, and if it be cold hammer it till you heat it. Never
cease prayer for any sort of reason or argument. If the philosopher should tell
you that every event is fixed, and, therefore, prayer cannot possibly change
anything, and, consequently, must be folly; still, if you cannot answer him and
are somewhat puzzled, go on with your supplications notwithstanding all. No
difficult problem concerning digestion would prevent your eating, for the result
justifies the practice, and so no quibble should make us cease prayer, for the
assured success of it commends it to us. You know what your God has told you,
and if you cannot reply to every difficulty which man can suggest, resolve to be
obedient to the divine will, and still "Pray without ceasing." Never, never,
never renounce the habit of prayer, or your confidence in its
power."


As we continue to share with you the victories & struggles of Rick's battle with Stage 4 Mantle Cell Lymphoma, a rare and aggressive blood and bone marrow cancer, I'd like to also encourage you to visit The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's LIGHT THE NIGHT WALK website: http://www.lightthenight.org/ocie/

11 of us are teaming up to walk in honor of Rick on September 19th.

Please consider supporting TEAMRick and the hundreds of thousands of people who suffer from blood cancers by raising money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society through the LIGHT THE NIGHT WALK. You can make a difference! We are so close to our team's fundraising goal of $2,500. In fact, out of our 11 Walkers, 7 have become Champions For Cures by raising already $100 or more! Congrats and thank you so much! If each walker on our team raises a $100 or more, a bigger impact and provision for more funds for cancer research and patient services can be made.
To donate, please click here: http://pages.lightthenight.org/ocie/OrangeCo10/TeamRick


In honor of Rick and all who battle against blood cancers, as well as those whom we will never forget, this is for you.

No degree of contribution is too little and no measure of prayer is too much.




Thank you so much for staying with us on this humble and strange journey. It may not always be easy, but it is purposeful. God bless you.


Love,
Dana

A true lesson in humility...

August 14, 2010

Hi everyone,

I was released from the hospital (round 3) last Sunday. For the first 3 days, I felt like Captain Chemo as it wasn’t even affecting me. Pride is until the end of time wrong and sets just before very large storms and tribulations. It seems from the 4rth-6th day, I was hit harder and harder with extreme nausea unlike anything that I had felt from the prior 2 rounds. The doctors and nurses gave me all the medication to try and manage it to get some food down. The only thing that worked was the love and consistency of my family telling me that I “had to” eat so my pigheaded mentality wouldn’t win. I know the chemo is working, but, I guess I really didn’t anticipate the impact of it all on my 42 year old body. I know it seems ridiculous and it is, believe me. I am even embarrassed to affirm it now. They are poisoning and killing parts of me, yet, “hey, Rick Lange is a tough guy and those normal effects are just for everyone else”. WOW. My mind is truly a hazardous place. However, The Lord is always faithful and allows me to see my weakness and my need for him. He is my Lord and savior as he continues to save me from myself and my thinking.

After being released, I was able to come home and there is such freedom is that. It is truly liberating no matter how your body is feeling. My stomach still remained very unsettled and food was a abomination to my thought process; but, each day I got a little better (baby steps). On Wednesday, I was able to go and have lunch at CPK with Dana and Kyra and even go to Old Navy and Vans. What a blessing. You may ask “why”. The Lord opened my eyes to see the greatest blessings in the smallest details and experiences. Just being out with them amidst a busy world and enjoying the sunlight and their happiness filled me with Joy. It still warms my heart as I think about it now.

A day before, Dana noticed that my pulse rate was running pretty high. I usually need to take my blood pressure twice a day and have one of those machines from CVS or Costco. I guess the normal is 60-95 and mine was running between 115-123. She called the doctor, I went and gave more blood, he ordered an EKG and another type of blood test (BNP) and indications were it could be some issues from the chemo and the natural affects on the heart. Understandable.

Here is Friday (yesterday). Let me preface this with I had expectations of what my day was going to look like so I had things to do..Yeah right..Humility 101. I received authorization for the EKG and I was to just walk in and they could do it so I went to St Josephs at 10:30. Then, I had an 11:30 with my oncologist, Dr. Mahmood, back home by 2. Here’s what happened: I finished with the EKG at 11 (right on time) and went to DR Mahmood’s office and grabbed a sandwich at the cafĂ© below to wait for Dana. Checked into his office at 11:35 and was put into a patient room to see him around 12. When we finally saw him it was 1:30 and I was told from the normal blood test they run every time that my hemoglobin level were low and I would need two blood transfusions. Now, I am bummed and really kind of irritated. Poor Dana just had to sit there and be with Captain Grumpy and Impatient now. Dr Mahmood finally comes in and says everything is working as planned, my blood levels are low and I need to go receive two blood transfusions today. Oh, btw Doc, how long will that take? I thought maybe 2-3 hours. He tells me 6-8 hours. I just about lost it. Dana and I drove to St Joseph’s and checked into outpatient at 2:15. Now, I have morphed in “King Resentment”. Bottom line, I was finally released at 11:15 last night. I tell you all this in detail because I truly know the Lord was with me as I still do not understand how I did not have a meltdown and lose it. I felt his presence, and yet, I felt the enemy telling me “he was going to break me”. It still seems surreal as last night I honestly have blind spots in my memory. I should have been on my knees in prayer a lot more and I wasn’t; yet, he never forsook me despite my willingness to do so at the smallest opportunity.

All your prayers blanketed me last night from self destruction. I know this now. Thank you for your persistent prayer on my behalf. I do not know how anyone lives their life without a true relationship with the Lord. I am humbled, I am grateful and I am Home. My prayer today is that The Lord will touch and anoint each of you with his love, his peace and his compassion today to enjoy what he has given you and I. As he continues to clear and cut away the darkness of my life and replace it with his light, I just want to praise him for carrying me through the times that are so painful to see the true victory he has claimed and our behalf.

May The Lord rest and abide in each one of you today,

Godsoldr

Monday, August 9, 2010

"Peace still remains"

Dear family & friends,

Rick is home now. His third round completed (part A of second cycle). He started strong, entering the hospital last Tuesday morning. The nurses were amazed and questioning as to what he was doing back...he's looking darn good! Wednesday and Thursday continued to be a piece of cake. He felt no effects of the chemo, ate very well (special deliveries of Mexican food and pizza, burgers, cupcakes & homemade soup) and slept just as well; other than the occasional middle-of-the-night "I need to check your vitals" wake-up drills. Then the dreaded reminiscence of treatment settled in. As Friday unfolded, so did the heavy cloud of restlessness and nausea. Medicine kicking in real good....this hovered consistently through the weekend. Rick was more than ready and grateful to be released Sunday. We had his bags packed pretty much at the crack of dawn.

As hard as it is during these low points when not even water sounds palatable at times, and when I see Rick's eyes and I know he is going through something I just can't even begin to understand; I never lose hope- peace still remains. It is a beautiful thing to me, something else I don't quite understand and can't fully explain- although we fight this battle, outwardly and inwardly, and Rick far more than I, it is a beautiful rest in knowing that it is Christ that goes before us. He truly has victory over it all. And so do we.(Deut. 4:20)

So we begin a new week. Recuperation at home. Home sweet home.
Rick has been catching up on lost sleep and giving into the fatigue most of the day. His energy and appetite are low. The first days at home after treatment are always the hardest. However, we are thankful; it's not as bad as it's said to be.

Please pray for Rick's strength and appetite to be restored. Pray for his blood counts to continue to show favorable signs of remission and complete healing. Tomorrow he is scheduled for Neulasta shot to boost WBC/immune system & protection against infections. Please also pray Rick will be tolerant of the bone & joint pain, all by God's grace & mighty power, all by God's perfect will, timing and to His Awesome Glory. "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. Strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, to all patience and long-suffering with joyfulness;" Phil. 4:13, Col. 1:11.

We are blessed beyond words by our loving daughters who continue to rise to the occasion to make everything so joyful and easier on me and sweet for Rick; as well as Mia and Mimi who are never short on TLC.

Once again, we cannot thank you enough, also, for your prayers and love. We know God hears and answers. He is good.

We look forward to His refreshing.

Life & peace in Christ,
Dana

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

"THE FINAL ANSWER IS...."

8.3.10

Hey everyone,

Rick checked in this morning for another stay @ St. Joes. We were so excited to find out he has a private room! Nice and spacious, with a bed for me to stay tonight! An answer to prayer! Our home away from home (kinda). The girls brought Togo's and love for lunch, and later Mia brought El Torrito for dinner; along with the Arayas who brought some delicious cookies. So much love! Yum! Not too shabby for Rick's first day back on the job.

Another awesome answer to prayer! The results are back!! After 42 years, the final answer is that Rick & Mike are 100% identical! Mikewill be Rick's stem cell donor. Thank you so much for praying for this to be! As I write this, I am so happy, and at the same time emotional at this extremely special thought. The Lord is so good to create us the way He does, for His divine purpose, to use us, in His timing, for things so much bigger than we ever imagine. His plans are always perfect. We love you Mike. We love you Jesus.


Peace & grace in Christ,

Dana